Being away from home on these past holidays and especially Easter has been really hard on me. I have never missed an easter with my family. I miss the egg dying, the traditional hiding of the easter baskets (the oven, the washing machine, you know), the easter story being read and just having family time. I have to admit that as we have been getting older it hasnt been what it use to be, but it was always still something. Even when my aunt said we were too old for easter baskets, my cousins and i fought it... but i have come to realize that missing important holidays with your family is a part of growing up. And then i came to another realization..I HATE having to grow up. Why cant life stay the same. Why do we all have to grow up, leave the house and try it on our own?? I cant understand why people want to grow up and why kids are in such a rush. I have figured out that you can never really "Grow up", cause as you get older you grow and learn new things in different aspects and parts of your life. So you never really "grow up". You  can always count your years of growing up in numbers. but not in growth of life,maturity and what you do with your life. Growing up doesnt mean having that "American" life that everyone dreams of.  You know, the big house, nice car, perfect marriage and kids. It doesnt happen that way. I have learned that the way i grow up is my continously finding out new things about myself, this life and how to become christlike in my everyday life. Living life to the fullest with no fear of what will happen next. Knowing that if something doesnt go the way you want it to go, that it still in Gods will even if you cant see the big picture, God can.  Gosh, I just realized that growing up is also alot of trusting God!!  WOW!! This blog is definately not what i planned it to be. But hey, as are all my blogs, these are the thoughts of the day and if they are confusing and mixed up...well thats just me!!  Love   ~NESSA~